I started this blog with the sole intention of using it as an outlet for my writing. I missed writing for fun, about things that genuinely interested me or that I felt passionately about. But, while this blog has been serving its purpose, I still felt like it was lacking something. My posts have been few and far between. Even though I'm happy with the quality and content of what I've written thus far, I am upset with the inconsistency and sporadic nature of my posting. I want to write more but I don't want to force topics on myself; I want it to come naturally and be genuine.
As I was sitting at work last night, bored silly with watching teenagers flirt and complain about how bored they were, I had a lot of time to reflect on the current state of my own life. I have been content for a while with the routine nature of it. I'm a creature of habit. But, all of a sudden, I was forced into a situation where I have no choice but to contemplate a new career and new living situation. There are some serious life changes on the verge of taking place. I am frustrated and terrified beyond what words can describe. However, despite all the thoughts and fears swirling around in my head, I am able to see clearly that this is a defining time in my life. The decisions I make are going to greatly affect my future. Do I pursue a career in line with my educational background in Criminal Justice and Forensic Science? Do I stay within the music industry? Do I stay at my current job and try to find some other way to make ends meet? My current job is entertaining, to put it mildly, and definitely has its perks. Or do I go outside of all of those areas and take on something entirely new? Do I stay in CT? Do I stay in New England? Do I move back to NY? Or do I up and move all the way across the country to Los Angeles?
While I'm not as old as I feel or act at times (I didn't get the nickname "Grandma" for nothin'), I can say that the way we document our lives currently is much different than it was when I was younger. As I was growing up, and even into my first few years of college, we had hard copies of our life events. We took real pictures with real film that we could place into albums or scrapbooks. We wrote in a notebook and called it our diary or our journal. Life now is very much Internet-based. Digital images end up on Facebook and Instagram and the like. They're sent to our families and friend in emails, not tucked away in a card. Our thoughts are sent out as status updates on multiple platforms. Don't get me wrong, I have nothing against this. I myself am guilty of having, and regularly using, Facebook, Instagram, Twitter, and Tumblr accounts. I have a lonely little myspace account that hasn't been logged into in ages and had Friendster "back in the day." I've published my writing on two blogs. The only issue I really take with this "digital life" most of us lead is the scattered nature of it. My photos, ticket stubs, handwritten captions aren't all sitting there on a single page for me to turn to and reminisce.
Now that I've gone off on a bit of tangent, let me get back to the point at hand. I've made a decision to expand on the content of this blog. To share and document my everyday life. While it may not be a physical scrapbook or diary, it is one link I can refer to and reflect on my life whenever I choose; I won't have to scour multiple sites to look back on all the inevitable changes that will be taking place. The meatier, quality writing will not disappear; it will just have some filler in between when my creativity and deep interests are on hiatus. For me, this blog will be a cohesive, pseudo-collection of the moments in my life. Hopefully, those of you who have been super supportive of my writing on here will find yourselves entertained with the anecdotes, photos, and other things that will be popping up in the coming days and weeks as well!
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